ITLE: Just a few things
DATE: 01/30/2005 20:26:00
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I’m so incredibly tired I don’t even know where to begin.
I was working on schedules at work today, and unless they get me some help soon, I’m working a 17 hour shift on Wednesday, and I know I won’t have a day off until the Glaciers in the Arctic [...]
It’s amazing to me that you can flatter yourself without knowing what in the hell you’re talking about.
I went through every entry since October 1st, and, funnily enough, there were 4, that indeed, needed to be deleted, because they were about you. The others you thought were, I’m sorry, you were sadly mistaken.
I’m sorry that [...]
There are times when I feel like I should just stop writing here all together. I’ve gained several amazing friends here, and some of them, I’ve lost. I hate that. 2 of them imparticular.
I’ve learned lessons from each and everyone of them…. the biggest one? Don’t give your heart away. Don’t even think about it.
Somehow, [...]
Hands tied high above my head, rope too tight on my wrist, knees on my thighs keeping me down.
Searing pain coarsing through veins trying to constrict….. begging not to feel.
“Don’t do this. Get the fuck off me.”
That laughter, the kind you never forget running through my ears, howling with painful pleasure.
My dreams have been [...]
He saunters in, staggering with ease… contradiction in his dressy suit and the stench of barley heavily seeping from his skin.
He makes me wretch as he comes to the counter, the smell getting stronger, bringing back memories, and making me want to run as he says “This one I’ll hide, the little lady out there [...]
There’s a part of me that’s so incredibly empty I don’t even know where to begin.
It’s not that I’m lonely, yet, I am….
I had lunch with someone today that I’ve never mentioned here, and it was good to talk to him. We have spoken so many times before in the past almost 2 years, yet, [...]
It was a strikingly beautiful morning in the oddest sense….
The air was cold and heavy laden with moisture, so much so that everything was the color of concrete.
Yet, it was earily still.
How did the world around me know that what I needed today was to be still? Too much commotion makes my thoughts jumbled up [...]
There are things you can say to me that whether you know it or not, bring me to my knees with hurt in a way that I can’t even begin to put to words. And I can’t say anything to you, because the words simply won’t come…. they’re jumbled up and have no meaning.
Don’t tell [...]
Love letters stuffed somewhere in a bottle. Bottles of blown glass in the same saphire of his eyes. Tossed out to sea, never knowing their destination, simply floating on a hope and a whispered prayer…..
I feel so yucky.
Completely worthless.
Unsexy, unwanted, unneeded……
Tell me you love me. Hold me in your arms and keep me warm and [...]
I have an entire two seconds, but so much to say.
I guess it will all have to wait.
I want you to know, that even though blood may seperate, the heart does not descriminate.
The person it’s meant for, will understand.
She told the lady at church that he’s her boyfriend, and that he gave her a Barbie [...]
